I always joke, "be careful what you pray for (because you just might get it)".
This is true in my case, all my life, as far as I can remember. Well, not all the time, because I have different levels of prayers, and I don't see all the results. Sometimes I pray to God on the run and/or I'm very distracted that I don't even finish the sentences in my head (I call them bullet point conversations). Sometimes I couldn't even "talk", I just felt my emotions, in His presence. Other times I only questioned. There were times when I prayed randomly/specifically/on request for people/events/places. Other times I made requests/pleaded/lamented/demanded.
I noticed those intentional prayers where I knew/felt both my mind and my heart spoke it, when I really asked for guidance, wisdom, clarity, clues, help... were answered. I was shocked time and time again that I received an immediate reply!! Some answers were subtle but obvious, and as I walked into them, were confirmed. Other answers were strong and "in my face" that I was either challenged or empowered to take them on!
I always questioned those "answers". I looked at the source (people, readings, experiences, lightbulb moments, etc) and I examined my reactions. I analysed my emotions, interests and motivations. I also prayed even more. Especially for those that really freaked me out, hahahah!
.... It has been more interesting lately, because people (individuals) are witnessing or experiencing the same things with me. We discussed the hearts of what we wanted to pray for and immediately, at times within minutes, we got the reply! Really amazing!
Now, we are very grateful, and nervously laughing. We take our "deep, heartful requests" very seriously!
We are becoming careful of what we pray for, because we keep receiving them! :-)
.... Because of above, I am scared to pray this prayer wholeheartedly from Psalm139, hahahah, ack! I want to, but I'm scared to, hahahah ugh. I'm anxious of what will happen if I specifically tell God to test me. I think I can handle giving Him free/full reign to lead me. However, though they are linked, I am not quite ready to confront all my ways that are offensive to Him. Just in case God really takes me on my challenge!!??! :-)
This is true in my case, all my life, as far as I can remember. Well, not all the time, because I have different levels of prayers, and I don't see all the results. Sometimes I pray to God on the run and/or I'm very distracted that I don't even finish the sentences in my head (I call them bullet point conversations). Sometimes I couldn't even "talk", I just felt my emotions, in His presence. Other times I only questioned. There were times when I prayed randomly/specifically/on request for people/events/places. Other times I made requests/pleaded/lamented/demanded.
I noticed those intentional prayers where I knew/felt both my mind and my heart spoke it, when I really asked for guidance, wisdom, clarity, clues, help... were answered. I was shocked time and time again that I received an immediate reply!! Some answers were subtle but obvious, and as I walked into them, were confirmed. Other answers were strong and "in my face" that I was either challenged or empowered to take them on!
I always questioned those "answers". I looked at the source (people, readings, experiences, lightbulb moments, etc) and I examined my reactions. I analysed my emotions, interests and motivations. I also prayed even more. Especially for those that really freaked me out, hahahah!
.... It has been more interesting lately, because people (individuals) are witnessing or experiencing the same things with me. We discussed the hearts of what we wanted to pray for and immediately, at times within minutes, we got the reply! Really amazing!
Now, we are very grateful, and nervously laughing. We take our "deep, heartful requests" very seriously!
We are becoming careful of what we pray for, because we keep receiving them! :-)
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.... Because of above, I am scared to pray this prayer wholeheartedly from Psalm139, hahahah, ack! I want to, but I'm scared to, hahahah ugh. I'm anxious of what will happen if I specifically tell God to test me. I think I can handle giving Him free/full reign to lead me. However, though they are linked, I am not quite ready to confront all my ways that are offensive to Him. Just in case God really takes me on my challenge!!??! :-)
Search me, O God, and know my heart!
Try me and know my thoughts!
Try me and know my thoughts!
And see if there be any grievous way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting!
and lead me in the way everlasting!
Those who listen shall notice. That's kinda universal. Prayer is one way out of many to sharpen your mind for listening.
ReplyDeleteNext step would be: What do you do with what you notice?
The above sounds to me, you are with something / someone half way between :-P
Good morning,
Ulrich